"You always guessed it right sir. By the way, I have something to share sir if you don't mind. I find it disturbing that people always meddled with my personal life especially about my love life. I understand the fact that these people just care a lot about me because they've seen so much when I was hurt but they show too much. They even seem to talk negatively about him just to discourage me as if I have plans on saying yes to this guy who has been showing around for sometime now(on and off). He often called before but I did not give much attention. Well, men as they always say whenever they try to win a heart of a woman that they're really dead serious about it. There's an incident that he did shocked me and a little bit impressed me when he followed wanting to talk to me and be close. I'm uncomfortable being around with this guy because of the things people might say about us as they really prohibited me to entertain him.I am actually confused with my feelings. His profession says a lot about how they deal with women but I don't want to judge. What confuses me is that I think my heart is almost persuaded by his actions and words but my mind refuses to accept that because of some factors including the negative comments of the people around me about him saying that I should have standards. I have my own standards but it doesn't include the physicality of the person. I understand that he's judged because of his profession but it's a battle between my heart and mind now. I don't want to be persuaded because I might get hurt again and at the same time, I'm getting attached to him. Could this be the effect of loneliness? I am still on the process of loving myself unconditionally as what you've advised previously about loving myself. It's my priority, to love myself but I can't help but to feel something. It isn't so deep right now but I'm starting to get the feeling.
" I don't know when I am ready to fall in love again and wait for it or should have fancied only on filling myself all the love I need. Thank you sir and take care!"
My reply:
Hi _____________!
Just carry on a good friendship. That is always a good beginning. And, surely, no one can prevent you from making friends of your own choice.
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